For years I've been working to cultivate my feminine power, knowing that there's a better way than the singular, competition- and lack-based narrows of a patriarchal culture that doesn't really much value (or understand) this "other" way.
Something in me has always recognized that it's a special and sacred privilege to sit in a circle with other women. Speaking from your heart and listening with the ears of your heart is an ancient spiritual practice that'll teach you a ton about feminine power if you let it.
I've learned a thing or two about deep challenge. The kind of challenge that can either pull you under or completely transform your life in necessary ways (a la spiritual emergency).
Challenge can be an absolutely miserable way to learn our lessons. But the thing is, it's loud, which is why it works as a means to get your attention. Feeling disempowered, victimized, panicked, and desperate all before breakfast can't be ignored. Not without a lot of medication.
It's all over the news. Stories of women being exploited, abused, and mocked. Grabbed, molested, raped. Basic rights taken away. A total denigration of that which is sacred.
I barely have the words to describe how torn my heart feels and how deeply angry I am. How completely incongruent this feels when I know women and womanhood to be sacred, necessary, and central to our survival.
As I lay there on my back on the sheepskin rug, tears rolling down my temples, their supportive hands on my heart, my belly, my forehead, arms and feet, listening to one of my sisters sing me a Sundance song, their eyes wet with feeling...
I remembered what I'm truly made of.
And what I'm not made of. And what you're not made of.
I've recently had a whole new inner-growth spurt, where I feel like I'm moving through my stuck places with an ease I've longed for for years. It feels like a big relief and really exciting to me to be feeling this free!
For me, this type of quickening often coincides with the flow (not ebb) of my yoga practice. Do you know the feeling? Suddenly, new aliveness became available in my inner thighs and pelvis, my lower back tension began to melt away, and I'm feeling stronger than I have in a long, long time. Generally, I feel like I can do anything and my creativity is roaring.
So I'm sharing my interview with Colleen Millen with you at the perfect time! As a fellow Somatic Psychotherapist and Forrest Yoga Guardian, Colleen knows a thing or two about breakthroughs.
I used to be a card-carrying member of the Cult of Busy and it almost killed my Spirit.
It's embarrassing to admit because as a Psychotherapist, it's my job not only to help people heal, but also to know a thing or two about what makes a healthy and high-quality life. For me, though, my teachings usually come from my own hard-earned lessons.
One of the things I love most about my life is that I have an extremely rich dreamworld. I have dreams that are clairvoyant, that inform me about the deepest recesses of my psyche, that offer guidance, and that connect me with The Sacred. I wake up each morning with anywhere from 1-6 dreams. They help me live my life from the truest, deepest guidance and connection possible.
I feel lucky enough to have a practice of consistently doing things I don't want to do, going where I don't want to go, and feeling things I don't want to feel. Meeting my edges. It's called Forrest Yoga. And I've been doing it for 12 years now.
This week I sat with a client who finds it hard to trust at times. Can you relate? I certainly can. Occasionally in my life, I've found myself in a rut of not trusting, and generally (though not intentionally) sucking the fun out of everything because I just can't surrender control.
A friend recently gave me a piece of her art. It contained the words, "love yourself in a deeper, truer way." The next morning, I sat with a client who's making strides in her process to peel back her wounding in order to cultivate a core of self love at the center of her.
She shared how she's learning that loving herself is so much deeper than just acceptance, just saying nice things to herself here and there.