Years ago when I lived in Chicago, my best friend and I (Hi, Char!) were the kind of friends who talked through everything. We knew what was going on in each other's internal world most of the time.
We talked about the hard stuff, the secret stuff, the beautiful stuff. And we had a saying (well, a lot of sayings, actually, most of them ridiculous. Um..."hamhocking?"). Anyway, we had a saying for when life felt particularly difficult and overwhelming. For when we were spinning out.
"Stop the ride, I wanna get off."
It was kinda like the prehistoric version of the distress call, "I can't even."
Too many feelings? Mind going crazy? Can't get your bearings cuz life feels like a roller coaster and you're strapped in and it's tooooooo muuuuuuch....
"Stop the ride, I wanna get off," we'd joke. Sometimes it was a joke to lighten the mood, sometimes an SOS.
Fast forward about a decade. Today, as usual, I sat in front of my altar for my morning ritual. Sage smouldered in the abalone shell that was a gift from another sister. My journal sat open and I was about to choose a card from my favorite divination deck. Prayerful presence and deep reverence.
But first, as I do each morning, I placed one hand on my belly, one hand on my heart, closed my eyes, and I breathed big, full breaths. I slowed down inside. I brought my presence to the nuance and sensation of the moment as much as possible.
And today, unlike some other days, I was able to really, fully touch that place inside. I've found that if I bring my presence fully, and if I give it tiiiime...as in, multiple, slow breaths, patiently determined, I'll find it.
The place that feels like a strong ground of support is under me. Where I feel capable of meeting whatever challenges may arise today. Grounded in my body, connected with Spirit, mind present, and heart open.
One hand on my belly. One on my heart. Closed eyes. Full breath.
It felt so so so good. And then, like a slow-moving cloud, this thought floated through my brain.
"This is like the opposite of, 'Stop the ride, I wanna get off.'"
Haha, that thought still tickles me. Delighted joy. I let the pleasure of it move through me. How long has it been since I thought of that saying from so long ago? How amazing is my brain to just call that up out of...nowhere?
It felt like just a little dose of magic, a little bit of sparkle floating into my day. And now yours.
One hand on your belly. One on your heart. Closed eyes. Full breath. Prayerful presence.
See what happens.
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Lots of love,